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Pastor: Not Sure How to Respond to Suffering? Start Here.

I’m not a theologian, my expertise comes only from personal suffering (as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and a suicide attempt). But it seems to me that theology—at least the Western version of evangelical Christianity I’ve been steeped in—is as much about our views of self as it is our study of God. To […]

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Suicide Prevention for Pastors

With Pastor Jarrid Wilson’s death by suicide, questions and comments have flooded my email and social media inboxes. Here’s one example, “I’m scared. Because there are people that I love who struggle with thoughts of suicide, and I don’t know what sets them apart from the Jarrid’s and the Andrew [Stoecklein]’s and the Amy [Bleuel]’s.” […]

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What You Need to Know When Pastors Die by Suicide

Andrew Stoecklein, pastor of the California megachurch Inland Hills, died by suicide Aug. 25. Here’s what you need to know.

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How to Help Pastors Who Feel Suicidal

How to Help Pastors Who Feel SuicidalDon’t think it’s possible that a pastor could be suicidal?I was a pastor when I nearly died by suicide on September 21, 2012.The truth is, I’m not alone. Each day around the world, approximately 2,000 people believe they have reached the end of their rope, and die by suicide. […]

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Do You Hear Jesus Speaking in the Darkness?

How do you find God in the dark? It’s a question I’ve been asked countless times, since I published From Pastor to a Psych Ward. I was recently interviewed by Will Maule, Editor of HelloChristian. If you haven’t checked out their site before, you’re missing out! In our interview, Will asked me a similar question, and my answer may not be what you expect.

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Pastor to Psych Ward: Recovery from a Suicide Attempt is Possible.

My clients were concerned. When they couldn’t reach me, they called first my wife, and then the hotel. I was lying on my back, unconscious, covered in vomit, when the police and EMT’s found me. They thought it was a murder scene. Vomit covered the bed and the floor. It had projected up the wall behind me, and coated a massive picture that hung over the bed. Apparently the pink Benadryl pills, along with the tens of thousands of milligrams of other medication I took, created the effect of blood. I had been unconscious for a solid ten hours by then.