Why an Abused Addict is Now Cultivating Innocence

By Steve Austin | Best of Messy Grace

Mar 11

Recovery is a long and often difficult road. But I as the victim of childhood sexual abuse and a pornography addict for more than twenty years, I am now cultivating innocence in the lives of my children.

Keep reading to find out more.

When I was 12, I discovered porn. What started as teenage curiosity turned to fascination, and eventually a powerful addiction to pornography. For nearly ten years of my addiction, I was a youth pastor in the Bible Belt.

I lived in constant fear of my perfect image being shattered.

In my ultra-conservative upbringing, there’s room for recovering alcoholics and drug addicts, but there’s little to no room reserved for recovering porn addicts. There’s no freedom for any Christian–much less a pastor–to say, “my drug of choice is porn.”


To read the rest of my story on Covenant Eyes, please click here.

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The latest study from the Barna Group, shows that 64% of churchgoing men are addicted to the vicious cycle of pornography. I would greatly appreciate you sharing this story with your friends and family.

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About the Author

Steve Austin is an author, speaker, and life coach who is passionate about helping overwhelmed people learn to catch their breath. He is the author of two Amazon bestsellers, "Catching Your Breath," and "From Pastor to a Psych Ward." Steve lives with his wife and two children in Birmingham, Alabama.

  • christiwalk says:

    Bravo for speaking out. This isn’t easy, and there are a lot of people pushing the values of porn right now. We need people with courage like you to speak up! Your voice is so important. Keep talking. Keep writing. Your voice is so important.

  • Steve, I completely agree with Christiwalk. Your voice of courage, vulnerability and honesty is needed in a culture of silence. Your voice will reach out to others who are hiding in shame. Bless you for being a light in their wilderness.

    • Steve Austin says:

      Susan,Thanks for your continued kindness. So often, I feel like Paul, the Chief Sinner. But I know the one who calms the storms, forgives my sin, and washes me whiter than snow. And for THAT, I can keep on trusting and talking about my mess. It’s his message.

      Peace to you,

      • Oh, Steve, we all have a little Paul (Saul) in us at times. And it’s the love and grace of Jesus that lifts us all up, keeps us all moving forward. <3

  • […] Then one day, we were in the car together, when he pointed out the window and asked, “What kind of bird is that, Dad?” I slowed down to look. As I glanced at him through the rearview mirror, what I saw was pure innocence. He’d made it. I felt myself breathe deep with relief. All at once I also felt something more: determination. I wanted to give him a different life. I want to cultivate and protect his innocence. […]

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