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When You Experience Your Worst Day…Again

When asked to think about my very worst day, several pop up at once in my mind. I wonder if I’m alone in this or if others have experienced their “worst day” more than once. I suppose that is a part of being human with imperfect relationships in an uncertain world. It truly feels awful […]

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How Devastating Loss Led to Ultimate Freedom

It was Thanksgiving morning, and I was standing in the shower, escaping for a moment into a world of hot water and steam. My morning shower had become my last refuge.Image by Olya Adamovich from Pixabay​Devastating Loss. Ultimate Freedom.I was no stranger to loss. In fact, loss seemed to be a fairly constant companion in […]

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Raped but Not Destroyed: Recovering from My Worst Day

I could write an altogether exhausting essay on how at seventeen I was raped – how I lost my virginity to my boyfriend and his two friends, in an act of violence and an act most definitely not consensual. Or I could write an essay on how that same night when I was at my […]

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Technology and The Worst Day of My Life

​I remember the day like it was yesterday, the excitement and anxiety. I was plagued with anticipation, my hands were sweaty, and my heart was racing. What would this day be like? What would transpire on the days that followed? I had questions, I had reservations, but I was going all-in. However, this particular day […]

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Grace: Like a Warm Blanket on My Worst Day

TRIGGER WARNING: Childhood sexual abuseI have never in my life wanted to die so badly.As I heard him pull in the driveway I froze in fear, shame, and guilt. “Get up, act busy, wipe your face girl!” I tried to tell myself. But, I just laid there frozen. I listened in horror as he gently […]

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Terminated by the Church: My Very Worst Day

“Besides, I shall perhaps obtain actual relief from writing. Today, for instance, I am particularly oppressed by one memory of a distant past. It came back vividly to my mind a few days ago, and has remained haunting me like an annoying tune that one cannot get rid of. And yet I must get rid […]

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He Left Me in the Midst of Mental Anguish

“The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places.”-Ernest HemingwayThe worst day of my life was the day my husband left me.He walked out on the anniversary of the day he first asked me out, twelve years earlier. We were sixteen then – high school sweethearts. When he walked out, we […]

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Surviving an Affair: How I Found Grace After He Cheated

I’ll never forget the day I started cursing. It was the day my husband admitted to having an affair.Even though I had suspected for a few months, all I could do was whisper “Bastard” and walk out the door. (I know, pretty low on the cussing scale, but we all have to start somewhere!) It was […]