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Mental Health My Very Worst Day (series) Recovery from Abuse

When You Experience Your Worst Day…Again

When asked to think about my very worst day, several pop up at once in my mind. I wonder if I’m alone in this or if others have experienced their “worst day” more than once. I suppose that is a part of being human with imperfect relationships in an uncertain world. It truly feels awful […]

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You Can’t Glue Ashes: Notes on the First Year of Grief

“​Blind me to the faults of the other fellow, but reveal to me my own.”-Ben House, Sr.To: Ben, From: BenA few days before Valentine’s day, my first-grader was sitting at the kitchen table filling out twenty superhero cards for his friends. When he filled one out for Ben, I was a little confused. He’d never […]

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Family Parenting

Grief is Weird: Hosting a Birthday Party at the Graveyard

“Are we going to have a birthday party at the graveyard?” I nearly had to pull over on the side of the road to catch my breath.

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Is it possible to live again? Life after PPD.

After Ben’s birth in September 2011, I suffered from severe sleep deprivation, psychosis, and postpartum depression.
It was the darkest time in my life. I was hospitalized for nearly 2 weeks and separated from my newborn for most of that time. The situation was completely beyond my control but I felt so much shame over it. With the help of good doctors and my amazing family I began to recover and finally feel like myself again.