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When You Experience Your Worst Day…Again

When asked to think about my very worst day, several pop up at once in my mind. I wonder if I’m alone in this or if others have experienced their “worst day” more than once. I suppose that is a part of being human with imperfect relationships in an uncertain world. It truly feels awful […]

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Technology and The Worst Day of My Life

​I remember the day like it was yesterday, the excitement and anxiety. I was plagued with anticipation, my hands were sweaty, and my heart was racing. What would this day be like? What would transpire on the days that followed? I had questions, I had reservations, but I was going all-in. However, this particular day […]

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Grace: Like a Warm Blanket on My Worst Day

TRIGGER WARNING: Childhood sexual abuseI have never in my life wanted to die so badly.As I heard him pull in the driveway I froze in fear, shame, and guilt. “Get up, act busy, wipe your face girl!” I tried to tell myself. But, I just laid there frozen. I listened in horror as he gently […]

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He Left Me in the Midst of Mental Anguish

“The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places.”-Ernest HemingwayThe worst day of my life was the day my husband left me.He walked out on the anniversary of the day he first asked me out, twelve years earlier. We were sixteen then – high school sweethearts. When he walked out, we […]

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Surviving an Affair: How I Found Grace After He Cheated

I’ll never forget the day I started cursing. It was the day my husband admitted to having an affair.Even though I had suspected for a few months, all I could do was whisper “Bastard” and walk out the door. (I know, pretty low on the cussing scale, but we all have to start somewhere!) It was […]

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Free Course: How to Heal Your Hurts

​Are you ready to find healing from emotional pain? Join my free Heal Your Hurts Course toay!Then join me for this brand-new, ​FREE e-course!Heal Your Hurts CourseI’ll teach you ​how to release the physical, mental, and emotional pain that keeps you stuck in a world of hurt.The FREE step-by-step process to go from pain to […]

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How to Share Your Story on My Blog

​Ready to Share Your Story?​For the past few years, I’ve shared my story openly about my very worst day: believing the lie that I was a burden on my family, reading my Bible in a hotel room while writing my suicide notes, and eventually trying to end my life. But my story doesn’t end there. A […]

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Surviving Suicide: You are Not Alone

facebook.com/devinbalramphotoA friend of mine asks deep questions with ease. We often talk about mental health and check in with each other, sharing our experiences of surviving suicide. She’s lost close friends, and I nearly lost my husband.She asked me, “How do you feel these days when Steve is speaking somewhere and you’re in the audience?”If […]

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Why I’m Trying Out Church Again for the First Time

“I suppose that since most of our hurts come through relationships, so will our healing, and I know that grace rarely makes sense for those looking in from the outside.”-Wm. Paul YoungDead InsideFor a while now, my Christian friends have laughed (or cringed) at my response to theological talk. I usually say something like, “I […]

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A Promise of Hope and Healing in the Next Generation

Last week, I had the distinct honor of speaking to two groups of high school students in New York. My friend and colleague, Sarah Fader, and I talked about mental health, stress, self-care, bullying, and panic disorder. At the end of each session, we answered questions from the class (always my favorite part of any […]